Friday, March 9, 2012

That I Would Be Good

How do you know if antidepressants are working? How do you pinpoint growth and recovery?

You start to feel like there is a light at the end. You don't wake up every single morning hating yourself and missing him. Sure, i have those days that eat away at my insides. Those nights where my mind races in a blind panic. Those little reminders of being single, unemployed and not where you wanted to be. But then I realize those aren't happening all the time anymore. I might go a whole day feeling a little more like my old self.

You start to look after your appearance again... I went to the hairdresser for the first time in months today and have started swimming again to get back in shape.

You begin to make plans and look forward to things you used I enjoy. I bought tickets with my friends to go to bonaroo this year... Something I've always wanted to do.

I still have some off days and nights aren't good for me still but I am slowly becoming, piece by piece, stronger.
Hyper Smash